That’s what we are known for here… Well, okay, obviously not Becky and the kids and I (LOL, do kids ever keep anything quiet?). I have immense respect for privacy, I really do. At a certain point in keeping myself accountable, I begin to wonder about all of this privacy that borders upon secrecy.
In my not-so-little family here, we do not keep secrets from each other. I am beginning to realize that many people prefer that their lives operate on the basis of a left hand kept completely in the dark about what the right hand is doing. I don’t buy into that. In fact, it seems like an open opportunity for rampant manipulation to me.
It is a bizarre thing for a woman like me to ponder these things. I am an only child, raised 3,000 miles away from all family members excepting my parents. Yet I always wanted that large family… Mind you, I had ZERO interest in childbirth — I thought adoption was the way to go. 🙂 But two children and a divorce later, I opted to be content with my smaller-than-anticipated but wonderful little family. With Becky, the family is definitely larger. In fact, right in line with the family size I thought would be ideal. That just hit me yesterday. When I wasn’t looking, what I always dreamed about landed in my lap.
Still, what does a “lonely only” really know about being a part of a large family? Not a thing. But I have wonderful instincts. Beginning with the fact that we do not hide things here: from each other, or in a more general way. We grow and live with a full sense of responsibility and comfort in who we are, and don’t keep secrets as if we are ashamed.
So, who am I? I’m a 34 year old woman, divorced, with two children, who fell in love with a woman with three children. Together, we are making a very loud, crazy, and happy home. I also have cancer, hopefully not for much longer. I am a desperately lapsed Catholic who talks to God constantly. I am a survivor and a doer. I cannot be held down for long, just thrown off temporarily. And I am coming into my own, with my small army all around me.