On the Other Hand…

Here’s that follow up I mentioned yesterday:

I felt mostly good, strong, while doing that hike.  It was AFTER the hike that the proverbial you-know-what was being flung wildly from a fan.

We decided to take a quick little trip up the mountain, by car.  So, we were in nicely air conditioned air during a record breaking day for heat.  All we wanted to do was pop up to Vista Point and then a local mountain community for a couple of hours of relaxation.

The highway to reach these places is a twisty, turny maze of switchbacks.  It’s a narrow two lane road, with amazing views.

Apparently, we have found my kryptonite. :/

By the first switchback I was blacking out from dizziness, then the huge wave of nausea hit.  By the time we reached the Vista Point (our first opportunity to turn around), I was done.  I couldn’t even get out of the car for a while as my legs were rubber and my heart was pounding and I couldn’t seem to breathe.

Really?

This is new.  I’ve always been a good traveller.  Now, all of a sudden I am sick as a dog from mountain roads?  Wow.  Who am I?

So, I made it back down the hill on pure irritation.  Instead of a pep talk, I was trash talking to my body:  “This is intolerable.  Completely unacceptable.  I am not going to stand for this lightheaded, weak-stomached bullsh*t.”  It may sound ludricrous, but between that bizarre drill sergeant-esque cheerleading and a good space of gritted teeth, I managed to stay relatively conscious and did not throw up.

I told Lara later that I flatly refuse to pass out and hurl at the same time – the only people who get to go out that way are spectacular rock stars.  Not that it is okay then, but at least it is understandable (and dramatic).

I am a little bit ticked off at my body, I guess.  It does all of these new things that are bizarre, and which I perceive as weakness.  I am not a weak person.  I refuse to accept weakness.

Grrrrrrrr.

There you have it: my venting/complaining/b*tching for the week.  Off to multiple doctors as the week progresses…

Still sending blessings to you all!

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